Sin and freedom. Part 2

Sin and freedom

Part 2

If you don’t like the word “obey” then I agree with you; I don’t like it either, but after many years of trying to avoid this conclusion, I think obedience has to be accepted. The idea of “following” God, or “living in tune with him” seems entirely positive to me, and in practice following God and obeying God amount to the same thing. However, I didn’t want to hide from the word “obey”, so we need to recognise that this is what we’re doing. We can feel those secular hackles rising: “How dare you suggest that I should obey anyone – even God; I demand complete autonomous freedom”. Well, OK, you’re free to do that if you want, but I think you will find that your “complete autonomous freedom” comes with hidden strings attached – the weakness of the will that makes it prey to seizing advantage for itself at no matter what cost to others, the tendency to justify self-interest as though it was righteousness, the following of fashionable ideologies as though they were true. Christians claim that it is only in the light of God’s goodness, truth and love that we are enabled to choose what is pure and good and lovely. It is in committing to living in tune with him that we receive the strength and guidance that allows us to live in true freedom. On our own, we are often powerless to be the person that we really want to be, but with God, that way of living becomes possible. By ourselves, we fail to live up to our ideals, but giving ourselves into his hands, thinking we were surrendering to his will – as indeed we are – we discover that our own will now has a clarity and depth that it never had before. Enfolded in his love, we discover that following his way becomes truly freedom to live life fully, for we have come to love as he loves, so that “following him” has become the same as fulfilling our own deepest desires.

Sin and freedom. Part 1

Sin and freedom

Part 1

Sin is inescapably tied up with freedom, for until we find a way to deal with sin we are not free, but if we can, then we will be truly free. Modern society exalts freedom as perhaps its highest aim, yet I don’t think it truly understands how freedom works, and this is because it has an inadequate understanding of human nature. Many years ago, when I was still a teenager, the Prime Minister James Callaghan gave a speech on education policy. He said that children are like flowers, all that is needed is to give them freedom and they will blossom. It’s a lovely thought – inspiring – the sort of thing we should get printed on a tee-shirt. Unfortunately, it’s not true. If we want to stick with an analogy from nature, it would be more accurate to say that children are like gardens: unless they’re carefully cultivated, it’s always the weeds that grow first. “Aargh, that’s so negative! Why do you have to spoil my tee-shirt!?”. And I agree – this is not nearly so uplifting or positive, but I don’t think it’s pessimistic, it’s realistic.

The only freedom we really have is the freedom to choose who to follow. If we say, “No, I will be myself! I don’t follow anyone!”, we will simply find that we are enslaved by our own weaknesses. And that’s if we can escape succumbing to the pressures of society! What faith gives you is a commitment to follow God, who then gives the possibility of overcoming this immensely powerful opponent, which we have identified as sin. With faith, it becomes a possibility, because God is the only one with the power to counter sin. As so often in the life of faith, the truth is counter-intuitive, and it is in the surrender to obey God, that we discover the freedom to truly be ourselves – if we understand “ourselves” to mean that true or best self – the person that we are when we are not blighted by our own weaknesses, and when we receive the resources to respond positively to the challenges dumped on us through the weaknesses of others.

Forgiveness through Christ’s self-giving

Lord Jesus Christ, only Son of the Father, Lord God, Lamb of God,

You take away the sin of the world: have mercy upon us.

We strive and strain, and sin.

With supreme effort we repent.

Inspired, we promise.

All in vain.

Distressed, we feel guilt and despair.

All in vain.

Hold us still Lord, resigned to receive your calm judgement of forgiveness, the quiet assurance of the Father’s love.

Love that, while we have struggled to do justice to the depth of our re-commitment,

Has comprehended the sources and consequences of our failings,

Has undergone the passion required for true repentance,

Has cleansed, purified and made whole.

Be still, behold the Lamb of God, and take his gift.

It’s time to talk about sin. Part 2

It’s time to talk about sin

Part 2

“Sin” has a root meaning of “falling short” or “missing the target” as when an arrow misses the bullseye. So, a focus on sin also means that we have a goal of achieving a life that is true to our principles, and it’s these goals that are our true focus. I believe that this strikes a deep chord in people. We want to be people of integrity. However, we discover in ourselves an inner battle whereby, especially in times of stress and pressure, we let ourselves down. This is a straightforward understanding of sin: we don’t want to let ourselves down – or those who depend on us, and so it is right and proper to consciously set ourselves against this force of sin and in favour of all those things that are good and pure and lovely. Christians sum all this up in the calling to love God as he loves us.

This inner battle can be understood as the conflict between our evolved “reptilian” brain, which is intent only on our own needs, and our consciously adopted altruistic principles that our more highly developed brain is capable of. (See Karen Armstrong, one of the best modern writers on the nature of religion, in her book, “Twelve steps to a compassionate life”). Or we might like to see it in terms of Freud’s battle between the id, the ego and the super-ego. Or perhaps in Augustine’s terms of the divided will battling between what you truly approve of and the appeal of illusory temptations to gratify yourself. However you see it, it is a reality of the human condition. Somehow, we have to come to terms with sin: that tendency to take short-term, selfish gains rather than long-term substantial progress in well-being for all of us.

The only way is forward

Dear Lord, we have made mistakes, which we cannot undo. We have made poor choices, and, in failing to resist pressure, we have not stood by our convictions. We have slipped into temptation, or gladly chosen wrong-doing, only to regret it afterwards.

Dear Lord, if we could go back and change those decisions, we would do so, for in the light of your presence we see that anything that is not true to you is a lie, and deeply damaging, for us and for those around us.

We ask you to forgive us, restore us, heal us. Help us to embrace the way forward that you show us in the graceful loving kindness of Jesus.

Lord, many of us already suffer from too much guilt, so – rather than seeking to change by taking on yet more guilt – instead, help us to look clearly and calmly at the gift of new life that you offer, to understand better the challenges that we face, and to accept the guidance and strength of your Spirit, that we may, indeed, perfectly love you, and worthily magnify your holy name.

Amen.

It’s time to talk about sin. Part 1

(This week’s article is about Sin and Freedom – coming in 4 parts)

It’s time to talk about sin

Part 1

Secular critics bemoan the way Christians are “obsessed” with sin. “It’s so negative, so pessimistic, so based on guilt”, they say, “time to leave it all behind”. However, my only interest in sin is to be free of it. My faith has given me a wonderful vision of what life would be like if it wasn’t blighted by this thing we call “sin”. The astonishing thing is not that Christians labour under a guilty load of sin, but that they have an inkling of what life is like without it.

We must accept that human beings (in our sinful frailty?) have indeed often messed up in our thinking about sin, and Christians have tortured themselves and imposed burdens on others through our lack of understanding and spiritual maturity. Another reason we’ve messed up is because of the extraordinary power of sin. Evil is so very evil that it has the ability to corrupt even those things that are in themselves  good. So, it’s not as though – if Christians stopped banging on about sin – it would all just go away, and we would live in a guilt-free, happy and altruistic world. All that would happen is that sin would continue to run riot, but no-one would even be attempting to frustrate it. Sin is like a force that apparently has a life of its own (though in reality, it’s simply parasitic upon our own human actions), and, in practical terms, it is as though it assails us and malevolently erodes the foundations of justice, goodness and truth in society, and in individual lives. It is an extraordinary reality. I wish it didn’t exist – not so that I would be free from having to talk about it, but so that we could all be free from its cruel influence. We all know that it can take a moment to destroy what took years to create, and this asymmetry explains some of the power of sin. We all know that even if each person just does one small act of selfishness now and then, somehow, when everyone does the same, it adds up to the nightmare of grinding poverty, of children collecting drinking water from muddy puddles and dying from preventable diseases. Each person just felt a bit afraid and threatened, and before we know it, we are at war, or demonising those who are different. So, let’s not feel bad about talking about sin.

Tip towards hopefulness

Dear Lord,

We pray that our measure of strength will outweigh our burdens so that the balance of our spirit tips towards hopefulness,

That our determination to do good will be greater than the frustrations which threaten to wear us down,

That we will not be indifferent to the needs of others, but will continue to listen to the call to justice and compassion.

Do not let us give in to fear, prejudice or despair, but instead live grace-filled lives, and fulfil your calling to us.

Amen

Encountering God Part 5

Encountering God

Part 5

We have to wait. This can be so painful. Some people may be able to say, “Bloody hell! I’ve been waiting all my life and the bastard’s still not turned up”. Let’s say it how it is and be honest with our feelings. God can take it. Can we? What on earth is going on here? Again, I don’t really know. All I can say is: don’t try to force it; don’t give up; don’t despair; don’t think that you have failed, or done something wrong; certainly don’t think that God doesn’t want you, that he’s not interested in you, that he doesn’t care about you, that you’re not good enough. You want to believe in God. Then start believing. Start acting as though God is real in your life. This may seem strange, like a charade, dishonest, wrong. But all believing in God is an act of faith. All you’re doing is extending this to before you encountered God as well as after encountering him. Abandon all expectations of what meeting with God should be like. When it happens – if it happens – and, yes, somehow, we have to put that “if” in the sentence, it might not happen – you will know that it’s happened. But remember, when it happens it could be the dramatic revelation of a conversion experience, or it could be the unnoticed welling up of truth till you surprise yourself with the sudden revelation: “Gosh. I believe!”. Let’s go back to that “if”: this is really important: if the encounter with God is real, then we must allow ourselves the possibility that it might not happen. Meeting with God is not something that we are socially constructing for ourselves; it is meeting a real person. He “might not show up”, but then, when we do meet him, we know that this is a real encounter. In the same way that we cannot force someone to love us – but when they do it is truly wonderful, so we cannot force God to appear at our command – but when he does appear, it is overwhelming, and wonderful beyond measure. Somehow, we have to believe that he does love us – and then try and spot the signs that this is so – remembering that the signs might not be the ones we were expecting.

God is real. It’s quite easy to accept that as a proposition that may well be true, and, personally, I am inclined to believe it. Just as it is easy to weigh up evidence to the contrary and conclude that this is a false proposition. But to know that God is real – to know this for yourself, requires an encounter with the living God. If you have not had this encounter yet, then reach out. Don’t wait for an encounter and only then decide to give your life to loving God. Start loving him now. Act out a life of faith in him. This sounds so strange: “So, it’s only an act; it’s not real”. But the acting out is both: yes, it is just an act because you are starting to live in tune with a truth that you have not yet encountered, but your actions are also deeply real because you are acting on faith. And what is more faithful than to show faith before you truly, actually have faith?  One of the ideas about the resurrection of Jesus that I love is, “You will meet him on the way”. The resurrection of Jesus has just been announced, but most of the disciples have not met him yet. They are told to go to Galilee and they will meet him there. They have to set off believing that they will meet him before they have encountered for themselves that he is risen. I think this is a good illustration for the life of faith in God. God must be encountered as a real presence in your life. Reach out and give him a chance. I understand that this is still infuriating for those who really want to meet God and feel that he just is not there. I am simply trying to explore as well as I can what the experience of meeting God is like. I wish you well with your search.

Once we have met God, we will love him. Love him with all our hearts. What we need is to encounter him for ourselves. He is real. He is near at hand. He is calling us. He is reaching out his hand now, as he has been all our lives. Reach out in faith and put your hand in his.

Encountering God Part 4

Encountering God

Part 4

So, some people are lucky. They say that God, in his grace, always makes the first move, and they have encountered God: he is a reality in their lives, and they love him. What about those others who want to know God and God just isn’t playing his part? If you are saying to yourself, “I want to believe in God”, then, by definition you have made a move towards him. If God is supposed to always make the first move, then he should certainly make a move toward you now that you have declared an interest. God just needs to get a move on!

This is why I say we need to reach out to him before we know that he is there. Consider the gap between knowing about God and knowing God. Everybody knows something about God – even if they then totally reject those ideas. But knowing God requires some sort of encounter and relationship. We may say, “I used to just know what others said about God, but now I know him for myself”. This sort of knowledge of God very naturally overflows into having faith in him. However, we are considering the situation in which we don’t at the moment believe in God. We understand what belief in God is, but we don’t actually have that belief, so we have neither knowledge of God nor belief in him. So, it is an act of faith to reach out our hand before we have either knowledge or belief that he is there. It’s so counter-intuitive. But if we wait until we have faith before we reach out our hand, then we will never reach out, for reaching out is what faith is. When we reach out, we already have faith, because we are showing our faith, even before God takes our hand. Now that is faith!

So, you reach out your hand. What happens next? What should happen is that you experience your hand being taken into another’s hand, an experience of someone leaning into you in an embrace, of a whisper in your ear, which should say, “Hello. Welcome” but instead audaciously says, as the very first words you hear, “I love you”. Of course, I am speaking in analogies; please don’t expect sensory experiences with your external senses; this is all going on in our minds and hearts, but this is the closest I can come to in explaining what an encounter with God is like, and so, if you have reached out your hand, this is what you should experience.

And you might.

Or you might not. God, of course, has no physical hands, so if you literally reach out your hand – which is a lovely gesture and very helpful once you have got to know and love God – you will not actually feel anything. The voice in your ear, which is, of course, the inner ear of your mind, and the feeling of close intimacy are easier to come to terms with, but cannot be forced, and are in no way guaranteed. You just have to take the risk that you reach out your hand, give yourself, and you get nothing back. I can’t explain this. Except perhaps to say that God is a personal agent in charge of his actions, whom we cannot control. He is not like electricity and if we plug in our plug then our device will power up.